Tag: feeling forgotten by God

  • The Mechanics of Spoils: Converting Victory into Wealth (Writ of Replevin)

    Winning the spiritual battle is only half the work; the second – and often most neglected half – is the accounting and legal processing of your spoils.

    In Numbers 31:27, God issues a technical distribution formula following the campaign against Midian:

    “Divide the plunder into two parts: between the warriors who went out to battle and the whole congregation.”

    If you do not know how to convert your spiritual breakthroughs into legally refined assets, you will either hoard the spoils and stall your warehouse dispatch or drag unsterilized enemy influence into your daily life.

    1. The Sterilization Protocol: Second-Hand Asset Purification

    When you acquire a high-value piece of second-hand furniture or vintage clothing, you do not immediately place it in your living room. It may carry bedbugs, dust, or unwanted scents from its previous house. First, you steam-clean the fabric, sand down the wood, or apply hot water to sterilize it. You refuse to bring the infestation of the previous owner into your clean home.

    In Numbers 31:23, God mandated this exact mechanical process for spoils:

    “Everything that can stand the fire, you shall pass through the fire, and it shall be clean… and all that cannot stand the fire you shall pass through the water.”

    Many believers ask for “the wealth of the wicked” or higher positions of influence, but they fail to execute the Sterilization Protocol. If a promotion or financial increase is not “steam-cleaned” by character, gratitude, and Word-based alignment, you end up bringing the previous owners pride, ego, and destructive habits straight into your warehouse.

    2. Breaking the Logjam & Issuing the Writ of Replevin

    To manage Kingdom plunder correctly, you must execute two distinct mechanics:

    • Breaking the Logjam (The 50/50 Split): In the natural world, a logjam occurs when fallen trees pile up in a narrow river, completely stopping the flow of water. Spiritually, if you attempt to hoard 100% of your spoils, you create a logjam on your own loading dock. Sharing the spoils with your house and community keeps the river of Kingdom authority moving.
    • Executing the Writ of Replevin: In civil law, a Writ of Replevin is an action to recover personal property that has been wrongfully taken or unlawfully detained.

    When the adversary uses past seductions or distractions to lock up your peace, health, or financial supply, you do not sit passively. You present yourself before the Bench in the Courts of Heaven and issue a Writ of Replevin, demanding the immediate release of your detained property so it can be passed through the Fire and Water Protocol.

    The Tactical Soul Audit: Plunder Inspection

    Take 10 minutes today to inspect your loading dock and answer these three diagnostic questions:

    1. Have I brought any unsterilized “second-hand” habits or ego into my warehouse alongside my recent wins?
    2. Where in my life am I creating a “logjam” by hoarding blessings instead of dispatching supply to others?
    3. What specific asset (health, peace, resources) has the enemy wrongfully detained that requires a Writ of Replevin today?

    The Executive Proclamation

    “Father, Supreme Judge of the High Court, I thank You that I am no longer a victim, but a Governor of the Plunder. I file a spiritual Writ of Replevin over every asset, peace, and financial resource wrongfully detained by the adversary. I bring every breakthrough through Your Sterilization Protocol—steam-cleaning my motives and purifying my assets through the fire of Your Word. I break every logjam on my loading dock and declare that my warehouse is clean, balanced, and operating in full Kingdom flow. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”

    Take the Work Off the Airwaves

    • Listen to the Deep-Dive: Catch Episode 31: The Mechanics of Spoils on the Sincere Milk & Solid Food podcast for the full message and this weeks playlist obsession (“All Authority” by Tasha Cobbs Leonard). [Listen on Spotify / Apple Podcasts]
    • Do the Deep Work: Visit our digital hub at www.sinceremilksolidfood.org to grab your physical copy of Guided Journal: Vol 1 and execute your daily soul audits! [Shop the Bookstore]
    • Are You Ready for Solid Food? Join the waitlist for The Believer’s Life Cycle book and get Chapter 1 free! [Join the Waitlist]
  • The Power of the Census: Identifying the Able-Bodied (Writ of Quo Warranto)

    We have entered a new season. Up to this point, we have spent twenty-five episodes securing the internal warehouse, establishing boundaries, and engineering the blueprint of authority. But “Solid Food” maturity understands that a secure warehouse is not a bunker to hide in – it is a supply depot for an army.

    In Numbers 26:2, God issues a command to Moses and Eleazar:

    “Take a census of all the congregation of the children of Israel from twenty years old and above, by their fathers houses, all who are able to go to war in Israel.”

    This was not a casual social survey or a simple headcount; it was a military draft. God was looking past the wilderness generation that died in “Milk” passivity and asking: Who has the functional capability to take the territory?

    1. Functional Capability & Basic Training Mechanics

    In the natural, you can be a citizen of a nation but still be completely unfit for active military service. In the spirit, many believers hold citizenship in Heaven yet remain uncounted on the front lines because their internal atmosphere is in constant turmoil.

    Consider the psychological mechanics of military basic training. Instructors intentionally provoke recruits to discipline their temperament – shouting a recruit’s full name and rank, then immediately demanding, “Tell us your name!”

    Unseasoned recruits grow aggravated and irritated by the perceived absurdity or redundancy of the question. But the ones who advance are those who temper their ego. They recognize that the exercise is not about their name; it is a test of their Emotional Intelligence Console. If you cannot handle a redundant question from an instructor without snapping, you cannot carry the pressure of the battlefield. The Census searches for those who have muzzled their ego so they can clearly hear executive commands.

    2. Navigating the Inclinations (Yezer Ha-ra vs. Yezer Ha-tov)

    In Jewish thought, spiritual maturity is measured by how effectively you govern the two primary inclinations of the human soul:

    • Yezer Ha-ra (The Primal/Selfish Inclination): Far from being just “sin,” this is the raw, primal drive(the ego, the survival instinct, and the impulse to snap back.) It is the part of you that wants to argue with the drill sergeant.
    • Yezer Ha-tov (The Moral/Good Inclination): The conscience that develops as you mature in the Word. It is the part of your soul that recognizes and yields to the Blueprint of Heaven.

    To be counted as “able-bodied” in the Kingdom, you must achieve self-mastery. If your Yezer Ha-ra is driving your reactions, you are a liability on the front lines. God counts those who have subjected their primal impulses to their spiritual assignment.

    3. Challenging the Occupier (Writ of Quo Warranto)

    Once you are counted by your Father’s house and stand in your spiritual pedigree, you move from managing your personal loading dock to challenging squatters in your broader territory.

    In law, a Writ of Quo Warranto (“By what authority?”) is an executive proceeding used to challenge an individual’s right to hold an office, franchise, or position of power.

    When you are mobilized, you enter the Courts of Heaven and issue a Writ of Quo Warranto against spiritual squatters occupying your health, household, or industry:

    “Father, I have been counted in the Census. I have subjected my inclinations to Your Word. By what legal right does this spirit of lack, fear, or infirmity occupy this territory? I move for an immediate displacement order based on my Kingly office.”

    The Tactical Soul Audit: Capability Check

    Take 10 minutes today to audit your functional capability and answer these three questions:

    1. Where am I letting my Yezer Ha-ra (ego, irritation, self-defense) drive my responses under pressure?
    2. Am I operating as an active soldier or a passive civilian in my assigned territory?
    3. What illegal squatter in my life or sphere of influence requires a Writ of Quo Warranto today?

    The Executive Proclamation

    “Father, I report for the Census today. I repent for every instance where I allowed my ego, irritation, or emotional noise to dictate my actions. I subject my primal impulses to the Holy Spirit and declare that my soul is disciplined, mature, and ready. Count me among the able-bodied. I take my place on the front lines and execute legal authority over every squatter in my assigned territory. In Jesus’ name, Amen.”

    Take the Work Off the Airwaves

    • Listen to the Deep-Dive: Catch Episode 26: The Power of the Census on the Sincere Milk & Solid Food podcast for the full breakdown and this weeks playlist obsession (“All Authority” by Tasha Cobbs Leonard). [Listen on Spotify / Apple Podcasts]
    • Do the Deep Work: Visit our digital hub at www.sinceremilksolidfood.org to grab your physical copy of Guided Journal: Vol 1 and run your daily soul audits. [Shop the Bookstore]
    • Are You Ready for Solid Food? Join the waitlist for The Believer’s Life Cycle book and get Chapter 1 free! [Join the Waitlist]

  • Breaking the Stall: How to Build Momentum in the Transition Stage

    Breaking the Stall: How to Build Momentum in the Transition Stage

    There is a specific, quiet agony that belongs entirely to the transition stage.

    It’s that middle ground where the old season has completely faded, but the new season hasn’t fully manifested yet. You’ve packed up your bags and left the nursery behind, but you are currently standing on a messy, confusing construction site. You know too much to go back to religious performance, but you don’t yet have the traction to run forward.

    In aviation, there is a dangerous phenomenon known as an aerodynamic stall. It happens when an aircraft experiences a sudden reduction in lift, usually because the pilot tries to climb too quickly without enough forward speed. The plane stops moving forward, loses its grip on the air currents, and begins to drop.

    A lot of believers are currently experiencing a spiritual stall.

    You aren’t backsliding. You haven’t lost your faith. You are simply caught in the transition stage, and because you’ve lost your initial speed, you feel like you are plummeting.

    The Illusion of Zero Progress

    When you are in the transition stage, the static of stagnation can play tricks on your mind. You look around and think, “I am praying, I am reading, I am seeking God, so why does it feel like nothing is moving?”

    The mistake we make is measuring our progress purely by visible, explosive speed. But real momentum doesn’t start with a sprint; it starts with the heavy, unseen rotation of a flywheel.

    A flywheel is an incredibly heavy steel wheel used in industrial machinery to store energy. When you first try to push it, it takes an immense amount of effort just to get it to move an inch. You push with all your might, sweating and straining, and to an outside observer, it looks like you are failing.

    But if you keep pushing, something powerful happens. The wheel begins to store the kinetic energy of every single push. Slowly, it completes one rotation. Then another. And suddenly, the weight of the wheel starts working for you. It builds its own momentum, and eventually, it spins so fast that nothing can stop it.

    Your transition stage is the flywheel phase. Every prayer, every soul audit, every quiet decision to choose intimacy over performance is a push on that heavy wheel. It feels heavy now because you are breaking the spirit of inertia.

    The Strategy for the Middle Ground

    If you are stuck in the stall of the transition stage, you cannot rely on how you used to operate. You need a shift in your mechanics. Here is how you build momentum when you are stuck in the middle:

    1. Value the Hidden Rotations

    Stop looking for immediate, massive outward shifts. Celebrate the internal victories. Did you choose to guard your atmosphere today instead of reacting to drama? Did you audit a childhood blueprint instead of burying it? That is a turn of the flywheel. The momentum is accumulating, even if the world can’t see it yet.

    2. Clear the System Friction

    In engineering, a flywheel will lose its energy if there is too much friction in the system. In the transition stage, your main source of friction is trying to drag old patterns into new territory. You cannot build forward momentum while carrying the heavy weight of people-pleasing, religious checkboxes, or old coping mechanisms. Run a clean audit and drop the weight.

    3. Keep Pushing the Wheel Consistently

    The enemy of momentum is inconsistency. Pushing the flywheel once a week means it will stop completely between pushes, forcing you to restart from zero every single time. True transitions require a daily, steady devotion to the blueprints God has handed you.

    You Are Not Stranded, You Are Stabilizing

    If you find yourself in the valley of the transition stage right now, take heart. The silence you are experiencing isn’t God’s absence—it is His processing room. He is altering your internal mechanics so that when you step into the wide-open space of your calling, you have the structural stability to handle the weight of the promise.

    The nursery was sweet, but the transition stage is where you grow teeth. Keep pushing the wheel. The stall is about to break.

    Let’s keep building.

    Take the Work Off the Airwaves

     Listen to the Journey: Join me on the Sincere Milk & Solid Food Podcast as we break down the real, practical mechanics of spiritual authority. [Listen on Spotify/Apple Podcasts]

     Do Your Own Soul Audit: Grab the physical or digital copy of our Guided Journal: Vol 1 to get 16 structured sessions designed to help you exit the valley and track your growth. [Shop the Bookstore]

    Are You Ready for Solid Food?

    If you are tired of religious formulas and craving real intimacy with Jesus, you are not alone. My upcoming book, The Believer’s Life Cycle, provides the exact roadmap I wish I had during my darkest spiritual valley.

    Stop performing. Start growing.

    [ Click Here to Join the Book Waitlist & Get Chapter 1 Free! ]

  • The Why of It All!

    The Why of It All!

    From Performance to Presence: Why Your Spiritual Growth Demands “Solid Food”

    When I first gave my life to the Lord, I knew I had found the ultimate manual for living.

    I was surrounded by older, well-intentioned believers who had beautiful hearts. They loved God, and they wanted me to love Him too. But they had run their Christian walk in a very specific way: a religious way, a performative way. Without realizing it, I adopted their blueprint. I started trying to perform my way into God’s good graces, attempting to buy my way into heaven with structured deeds and perfect church metrics.

    But deep in my spirit, there was a quiet, aching disconnect. I didn’t want to just perform for Christ—I wanted a relationship. Because I didn’t know how to identify this divide, the tension grew. And when the initial, beautiful “honeymoon phase” of my salvation came to an abrupt end, I wasn’t prepared. I was suddenly caught in the demanding pull of spiritual growth, but I didn’t have the blueprints or the tools to build.

    What followed was one of the darkest, most frustrating seasons of my life.

    Stuck in the Valley: When the Formula Stops Working

    In that season, everything that used to work suddenly stopped.

    My prayers felt like they were bouncing off a brass ceiling. The easy comfort I used to feel was gone. Because I lacked the tools to understand what was happening, I believed the worst possible lie: I thought God had abandoned me. I fell into a deep, heavy spiritual depression. I felt completely forgotten.

    I remember crying out, “Why isn’t this working anymore? Why did it work before, and now there is only silence?”

    I felt utterly stuck. I knew I couldn’t go back to the world. I had grabbed hold of something so much greater, so much more glorious than anything I had ever known—there was absolutely nothing to go back to. But I also had no idea how to move forward. I had no clear roadmap.

    Worst of all, I was submitted to spiritual leaders and human opinions far more than I was submitted to God. That is a dangerous, silent reality of modern faith: it is easy to mistake submission to religious institutions for intimacy with Jesus Christ.

    The people around me had a relationship with God that suited them, but it was not what my soul was starving for. I wanted intimacy. I wanted the raw, unpolished, real thing.

    It was only when I began to seek the Lord out of absolute, desperate hunger—saying, “Lord, I don’t want the formulas. I just want You. What is going on?”—that He gave me a clear direction. That direction was the gift of this ministry, Sincere Milk & Solid Food.

    And that is why this space exists. It was built in the valley.

    The Danger of the Spiritual Nursery

    My story is not unique. It is the silent crisis of the modern Church: We have a generation of believers sitting in the nursery for years because they have been trained in performance, not relationship.

    In Hebrews 5:12-14, we are handed a loving but sharp wake-up call:

    “For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you again the first principles of the oracles of God; and you have come to need milk and not solid food. For everyone who partakes only of milk is unskilled in the word of righteousness, for he is a babe. But solid food belongs to those who are of full age…”

    Milk is easy. It is sweet, comforting, and requires zero effort to digest. But if you try to live on milk forever, your development stalls.

    When we remain spiritual infants, we struggle to discern truth from error. We depend entirely on the “spiritual temperature” of our leaders or our church environments rather than commanding our own atmosphere. We stay unskilled, anxious, and fragile.

    Transitioning to “solid food” is the step where you stop letting others dictate your connection to the Father. It’s where you take radical self-responsibility for your faith.

    Your Life is a Warehouse, Not a Fragile Tent

    At Sincere Milk & Solid Food, we teach a core principle: Your life in Christ is not a fragile tent designed to be easily blown away by the wind; it is a premium warehouse designed to hold heavy, high-stakes Kingdom promises.

    But a warehouse cannot run on autopilot. When you are ready to transition from milk to meat, you have to do the heavy structural work:

    1. Audit Your Soul: You have to look at your emotional blueprints, your childhood coping mechanisms, and the religious baggage you’ve accumulated, and clear out the spiritual clutter.
    2. Establish Kingdom Authority: You must learn to speak with creative, legislative precision in the spirit, moving from a beggar’s pleading cry to an heir’s proclamation.
    3. Command Your Atmosphere: You have to learn how to keep your internal climate controlled, ensuring that the static, opinions, and noise of the world don’t disrupt your peace.

    Let’s Do the Work Together

    If you are currently in that valley—feeling forgotten, frustrated by religious performance, and wondering why the old formulas aren’t working—I want to tell you: You are not abandoned. You are being called to grow.

    The comfort of the nursery is gone because God is developing your teeth. He is inviting you to the table for solid food.

    Let’s stop tiptoeing. Let’s pick up the blueprints, step onto the construction site, and build an unshakeable faith together.

    Take the Work Off the Airwaves

    Coming Soon (In the Works): I am currently writing my next book, The Believer’s Life Cycle. This book is a deep-dive map of the ground-level seasons we walk through as we grow—unpacking the raw stages of Sowing, Weeding, Fertilizing, and Harvesting. It’s written for anyone who needs to make sense of the ground they are currently standing on. [Join our newsletter to get updates and be the first to read chapter previews]

    Listen to the Journey: Join me on the Sincere Milk & Solid Food Podcast as we break down the real, practical mechanics of spiritual authority. [Listen on Spotify/Apple Podcasts]

    Do Your Own Soul Audit: Grab the physical or digital copy of our Guided Journal: Vol 1 to get 16 structured sessions designed to help you exit the valley and track your growth. [Shop the Bookstore]

    Are You Ready for Solid Food?

    If you are tired of religious formulas and craving real intimacy with Jesus, you are not alone. My upcoming book, The Believer’s Life Cycle, provides the exact roadmap I wish I had during my darkest spiritual valley.

    Stop performing. Start growing.

    [ Click Here to Join the Book Waitlist & Get Chapter 1 Free! ]